As a person who endured childhood abuse and trauma I learned to internalize emotions as a way to cope and to survive. If I was hurting I smiled, If I was overwhelmed and frustrated I smiled , When I was manipulated and tormented I smiled. I never really told anyone how I really felt.
Forgotten Tears of A Mother
Who would have thought a 45 minute conversation with my mother would change my whole perspective and attitude towards my mom. God has such a way of doing the unexpected and beyond expected. For many years I have carried resentment, UN-forgiveness, and hatred towards my mother for placing me in adoption. 5 years ago the…
The Season Before The Next Season…
I don’t know about you but I love going to IKEA. I can spend the whole day there and not get bored. Browsing through showrooms getting lost in all the design layouts and ideas is my happy place. There is one thing about IKEA I don’t favor. The part when I get home, open the…
Beautiful Surrender: Letting Go
Placing my hands up in surrender I whispered to the lord ” I surrender my reputation” As tears drop I knew this had a deeper meaning then what I could understand at the moment. A few months ago I remember a similar conversation with God but I was surrendering every relationship I put above God.
Foster Care: Tips on Meeting Birthparents
Meeting my birth mother at the age of 24 came with so many lessons here’s the advice I would give at 28 years old. Get a cup of Tea and sit down let me share some treasures with you:
I’m Just Unfinished.
Originally posted on Hello Massiel Blog:
Jeremiah 17:9 NLT I remember being very emotional at everything that would come my way. I wasn’t sure how to deal with circumstances I was in, it almost felt like anything that would come my way was just crumbling my world. Tears would run down my face, crying became my…
Purity after Sexual Abuse
I heard the Lord whisper to me “There is Purity after Sexual abuse”. The words sparked me because I never thought I would be able to see myself as pure with such a dirty and dark past.
Sweet Encounter with FREEDOM
At the age of 14, I could pretty much name every self-help book out there. Its fair to say since I was younger I’ve been trying to fix myself. The mirror has always reflected brokenness to me. If you would have ask me if I could have anything in the world what would it be…
The Confessions Of A Needy Friend
I think this post has to be one of my rawest posts thus far. I have cried, prayed, got mad and became extremely transparent and vulnerable about my battle with rejection. This post is about the confession of a needy friend. I didn’t know I was that person until God begin to take me through…
The Messy Process (unedited wounds and all)
At the end of the day when everything fades away your left to see the problem wasn’t anyone or anything but everything inside. The battles you fought and thought you won weren’t won they were just covered with distractions and tasks. All that busyness didn’t even count to the lord it was all for the flesh…
Refined Treasures 